There's so much to be scared of, and not much to make sense of.: confessions.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

confessions.

i thought i hated school.
i just realised i was actually afraid to go to school.

all along,
i see myself in people.
when others talked about these people,
i felt so ashamed of myself,
and i'm so scared that i'll be in the list too.
sometimes i really do hate myself.

i don't blame people for not understanding,
'cause i never tell.

that fear has gotten back.
i tink it's rejection.

and seriously,
i think i'm mental.
sometimes i wonder if i really should go to a shrink.

ah
i felt so much better wrting here and of course,
after some tear-shedding behind closed doors, again.

i'm very fine =)

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