There's so much to be scared of, and not much to make sense of.: to my dear friend.

Monday, June 06, 2005

to my dear friend.

first things first. i hope you don't see this as a quabble or watsoever. i just feel that there's a need for me to clarify.

*the 'drag u in' thingy.
never did i worried or IMPLIED that u are dragging us in.
that's her worry, not mine.

*and, 'why did u start in the 1st place'.
i was merely telling u my friend. we're having a conversation. a chat over the phone. why can't i bring up such matters in a conversation? you're the one who got so agitated.

*' I'm fuckin piss cuz u told me in a tone that I wouldnt win n i cant outtalk them with fighting for my rights...in a tone that IMPLYED I'm unreasonable '
are you implying that i'm looking down on you. oh god. i can't believe that you actually think that i will look down on you. dear friend, you have great imagination. i swear, never did/will i look down on you.
i may sound harsh in that conversation. cause i was so shocked that you've actually made a big commotion(that's what i heard from her.) and i just want to know your side of the story, to know what's going on. really.

*the 'you won't win ' thingy.
i really don't understand why, you were so god damn pissed off by these words. i guess there's a big big misunderstanding. as she told me that boss H has denied all the things she had told you, we was just thinking they can deny everything. and so we THOUGHT u won't stand a chance dear.

again, i really don't care whether did you ever mention our names. that's her prob. she's the one who is so freakingly paranoid over this issue. i mentioned it, just on her behalf.

why? why are you always indicating i'm flaring my temper at you? yes. maybe i sounded like i am. but wait a tick. all along, i thought that though the conversation was a not-so-friendly one, but we were still not really on the verge of quarrelling. i was so damn shocked, that u actually hung up the phone. i just want to know what is going on. but, YOU HUNG UP THE PHONE. look who's flaring her temper now.

another thing, you said that i'm implying that you are unreasonable. hey dear. maybe i am. that's why i want to know your side of story, as all along, even till now, i'm updated by only her.

talking about respect. i believe you're not too good either. yes. i have no rights on stopping you for the fight for your rights. but i don't think hanging up the phone in midst of a conversation is what you call respect. and the way you blogged on this issue, the way you wrote that very post to me, it looks just like the way you countered others in the past. i was thinking, yes, you have the right to blog what you want. but don't you think the way u wrote , to your friend(i assume we are still friends), when we are not even quarrelling, is so damn harsh. not only harsh, but brutal. sorry if it sounds exaggerate-ting. maybe it's because i'm a wuss(i own up that i'm one). that's why.

i think that there is a need for me to apologise for sounding abit harsh over the phone.
i sincerely apologise.
i'm sorry.
and i really hope that this is the end of episode. : ) really.

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